So Damn Tired – Open Journal

Honestly, I don’t even know where to begin with this one. I’m just stunned with all the hate and the violence going on right now. It doesn’t sound real, and I really wish it wasn’t, but that’s the reality of the matter. Even writing this here at my work desk, my heart feels heavy, my chest is tight, and I’m trying my hardest not to cry. I’m so damn tired of it… of all of it.We thought there was so much positive change after abolishing slavery, the women’s rights and civil rights movements… it was progress, yet there are people who are bringing us back. Nazis, KKK White Supremacists, they’re still alive in this day and age, and of course, the fucker who calls himself the President does nothing to oppose them.

Excuse the language. I try to remain civil and level-headed in these, but sometimes, these events just emotionally push me off the edge. The thought of all of this alone has sapped me of my joy and energy. I’m physically tired and the sorrow is so heavy, it’s making me feel like I’m aging faster as we speak. My eyelids are heavy, but I can’t sleep. I don’t even have the energy to smile. Look—just please be there for each other. That’s all I ask.

In the case that I am not in a proper emotional state to write more of these blog entries, I apologize ahead of time.